疑心病...病入膏肓...

haih....
actually i noe i always gt 疑心...
bt i really cant control it~
always ask myself dun think too much...
bt its useless...
and i think...
if i tell my friend about tis blog...
will them suft...
i will think "they also nt care de la.."
bt i dunnoe iziit the truth...
bt i will think it...
F**K...





iziit i should 疑心...
cuz of many case b4....
and make me like tis...
especially is u...fucker
i dun wan fan min with u...
fan min "no good" 4 me...
so i still contact with u lor...
deng...
how i noe u will gt tat childish thinking wor...
if i noe earlier...i will nvr do tat...
ur thinking same as ur height...
(like kindergarten)...
F u la...
hope i will nvr 疑心anymore...
bt i noe i cant do tat...
argh!!












today meet tat gal at cekap...=x
chan wai ling....nice~
hehex ^^

~*IR Day*~

today wake up so early and so rush to make up..
sock xien wanna me fetch her go cy hse...
bt she late...==
finally v reach cy hse at 9.15am lor...
fortunely yih siew haven reach yet...




after 5 mins...
yih siew and her friend.shu ting came jor..
den they faster make up with see see and shock xian lor...
i like see see de hair...quite beautiful de...
cuz no time ald...
so shock xien's hair nt settup completely...
they took a long time...
and make us late jor a bit...
bt still gt ppl late den us...hahax ^^





in bus v do our own thing...
one thing funny is xien help see see to use "mascalar"...
the bus so zhen...
and they oso can do tat...so pro...
after tat xin yi help xien do lor...





when reach thr...
see a lot of leng cai and leng lui...
suddenly realise my suit is simple...
bt its ok...
den v chat a lot of "rubbish"...
after tat v go in the hall
the hall is so grand...like it so much...





cy and jy go play with the skating...
so scary...
bt finally they came back safely...





do a lot of tired thing....
den go back liao...
and makan dgn seah jade...see see and xin yi...
after makan...
all back liao..
so tired..
so write in summary...
lol



im tired...

~semi-final~

today morning go find teck wee so early...
after ask her about the opinion of should v go back help...
as soon as wind...she say yes...lol
after tat i lari pergi wei see...
when i reach her block...
hwee tell me she go toilet le...
sienzz ==
after tat wait lor...
wait til nt nai fan liao...den look at car park thr...
finally see the "see see"...
den federick and me run to ground floor find her lor....(so big larhx...still wan me rush to find u =x)
den ask their opinion too...
they oso agree le...
den go back ask chi yuan lor...
actually noe his answer so early le...lolx
den i ask chin yuan...
i scare lye yin and jeng yang will nt shuang...
bt our point is positive de la...
finally i find all ol to meeting at canteen...
aiya...
4got to tell lye yin tim...
den v wait a about 10min...
finally v din wait le...
i say tis news out...
and jeng yang din look at me...juz looking at his rice...
scare him beh song...
(hope u understand)
actually v is nt cha shou larhx...^^
finally he is k...
after 3hours...
semi-final start le...
fortunely...
everthing under control...
after comp...
v meeting at canteen...
tis is my 1st time so happy and funny when meeting...
and v laugh ar...play ar...finish the meeting jor...
of course gt discuss sumthing out...
den lun dao v ol le..
v oso discuss le some wen yi ri de thing...
and jue ding meeting at my hse at 2.30pm....
omg...wei see so lei...
i can let u lie on my hse floor de...=x
haha...
after the meeting...
v go back to discuss someone...
and v laugh til wanna fall on floor jor...
ecpecially one table two nail...
really za dao with pei yi...
den after tat...go to tuition...
den finish le 17th april 09 in my life....

16th~sadness

haih...im start my blog with a sad blog...sienzz..
today 16-4-09...is a F**K day...
i do a idiot thing in my class...
i lost my emo...
lost control...
y i will like tat...
i oso dunnoe...
mayb is tat reason gua...
im starting cant control my thinking le....
i will bu zhi jue de think by tat way...


~*TiRed*~
im really tired always zhu dong chat wif friend...
everything oso is start frm me...
and i nid to pretend so good...
if nt i gt friend??
i dun think so...
im tired to use tis way to get my friend...
i hate tat!!
can i stop tat...
no way....never..!!!!
i think i can "cheng" 4 a longer time...
bt im cant...
althought in 4 mulia or chinese society...
im always keep my emo...
pretend everything is ok 4 me...
bt im nt!!!
actually i juz wan friend...
a person tat can listen my xin shi...
today at class...
im thinking about it...
bt my answer is i have no tat person...
so...i lost my emo...
am i happy in drama club??
iziit the world is changing...
tat is nt fare 4 me...
past year im happy wif my drama member...bt how about nw??
am i really so terrible in drama?
im juz a normal human...
nid friend too...
im nu li to keep our relationship...
by using anyway
bt...
im tired nw...
althought im tired...
i will continue...
cuz if i give up...
i will lost my everything...
thank wei see...cuz i think she is my closest friend in drama...
thank chin yuan mei chee yee ying li fong and yih siew...
im really tired le...
should i give up??
i should say...
can i give up??
i will nu li to change my attitude...
T.T
i dun like to pretend anymore...
althought im drama member...